Nobody a.k.a emo: Goodbye Jakarta!!

After 2 and half months in Jakarta, my journey at Jakarta eventually come to an end, just another few more hours to go. Am i happy? If this question is asked few months or even few weeks ago, definitely, i dun even need to think about it. But after i get the news that i'm going back malaysia for long, no longer need to come back here tat time, at 1st i not really sad, at tat moment i just felt "oh no, all my plans are ruined!"

Few days later, i actually reset my plan in my mind and eventually i'm starting to accept tat the facts that i going back malaysia, accept tat i will be no longer earning tat much. Until today, tis moment, i actually feel sad about leaving tis place, not about the allowance and career side, is tat i actually missing here. I miss the frens here, all my Bakrie colleagues, my supervisor and all the colleague working in Bakrie project. I'm not saying this to "chak hai", they wont be seeing this though, in fact they are really nice to me, everyone of them! Since i joined this company, from malaysia office, till training in bangkok, back to malaysia office, on-site training at maxis and lastly come jakarta here training, throughout all this half a year, i have work under a lot of different boss, work with a lot of different team. But somehow, tis Bakrie team i support in jakarta is the best among all. I dun think i can find such nice boss, such good supervisor and such friendly colleague in my life again. Nice boss good supervisor not meaning they are superb, they are good in technical, they can solve anything... NOPE. They dun give me any stress at all, they gave me chances to try, i dun feel pressure work under them, they like to joke around and have fun in the right time and most importantly, they actually answer all of the question i asked and not feel annoyed! I asked a lot of question, some of them are those very very basic general question, i even repeating ask the same question coz i tend to forget easily. But they never even feel frustrated and they did answer my stupid question, and tried all kind of explanation to let me understand it.

This is all made me missing here even though i felt lonely here, not really tat much frens here, but somehow i already used to it. The thing different btw malaysia and jakarta is, in malaysia i cant stand it when i'm home, i felt bored! or after work i will wanna go back early, go out with frens, if not i will feel like i'm wasting my time, i cant stand sitting in front of my laptop all the while, even if i out with some group of people or some event which i not really interested, i tend to feel like i'm wasting time, then not happy and eventually started to become emo. Come to think tat way, when i went to some places with some group of frens, i can just hanging around doing nth the whole days, tat's consider wasting time too!! But somehow i dun think so, i dunno why, i just felt tat way in malaysia.

But in Jakarta, all my frens are not around, i'm used to the life staying in hotel, even the whole day stay at hotel watching my series, anime, movies... without online, but yet i dun feel tat way when i at malaysia -- which is wasting time. Not at all, mainly coz i know i have nth better to do, even if after work, i already used to go back late, hanging around at office even though nth much to do. My main point is i dun feel wat i feel in malaysia which is wasting time. I think is becoz in malaysia, i wish to have more enjoyment, out with frens, enjoy life... At here, if got go out then it would be nice, if not then just let it be... tat's all. Even alone staying at hotel for the whole day, whole week, who cares? i already used to it and i dun feel emo at all!! The more enjoyment u got, u tend to expect more; my mind already settle down here which i cant have much enjoyment here, surprisingly sometimes i feel like looking forward to go back hotel watch my series!

It's late already, i need to prepare going to airport soon. Dun think i have chance to sleep already. Lastly, i just wanna thx everyone of u in Bakrie team, so sorry for keep asking u guys to take photo with me coz it might be the last time i will be meeting u guys, who knows? but somehow not manage to take photos with some of them, but nvm la, i feel satisfied already. Thx again, even though i kinda quiet, never talk much with u guys, but believe me, everything i stated above is truth. Once and for all, i dunno whether i will regret saying tis, maybe in the next day back to malaysia i will take back all my words, but somehow in tis moment, let's hope in 1 day, i will be able to come back jakarta to support the same project, most importantly all the same bakrie colleagues!! Goodbye Jakarta!!!